Just a teeny tiny very mild anxiety attack
Not sure what, specifically, preciptated it but I think in general it’s the cleaning, discarding. It’s change. I don’t like change. I’m having a hard time getting rid of stuff my mother gave me - from her kitchen or my aunt’s kitchen (the aunt who furnished most of my house - does it represent rejection and that scares the crap out of me? Yeah, I know, you’re reading this and thinking I’m way over-thinking this but I don’t think I am. I am soooo bound up in my mother that most things I do that I fear will bring about her displeasure/castigation/yelling give me the shivers (and not in a good way.)
